Lunch- 2 whole egg omelette cooked in butter with spinach,bean sprouts and tomato and sauteed mushrooms+ an avocado salsa salad with sweet chilli sauce
Breakfast- banana smoothie parfait with whipped marshmallow and coconut cream, green mango (which is yellow on the inside and slightly sour),cacao nibs, coconut meat and honey roasted macadamias! oh be jealous..
So heres my excited, and “IM GONNA NOM SO HARD” happy face.. i’m very attractive today
So my heres my excited, and “IM GONNA NOM SO HARD” happy face.. i’m very attractive today
Lunch- raw vegan dragon bowl with a tahini sweet chilli sauce and a coconut!. In it is chilli roasted nori, snap peas, shiitake mushrooms, avocado, pineapple, zucchini and carrot noodles, purple cabbage, bean sprouts, capsicum, onion ,lettuce and YUMMYNESS
Breakfast- pumpkin and home made coconut cream chia parfait topped with coconut meat+ blueberries and apple slices
i did schtuff today, including impersonasting elton john
It’s funny how your mentality and feelings about yourself alter your ability to discern clearly and view the physical world. It’s a scary thought to think that your mind can make you see simple unsatisfactory things in life such as purported weight gain or distorted images; to far more complex designs of events,sights and sounds. We often remember events different to others, fabricate scenario’s or forget things that are significant. Faces can change from our dreams to reality and back again in our dreams.
Today for a majority of the day, the girl i saw in the mirror was quite chubby. 2 hours ago that image changed and i could visibly see me underweight self.. or is it truly so?
Our views of the world are often distorted and it makes me question how much of the life i would have lived in the future actually happened. If the universe I’ve become viewer to is the same as those i was in the audience with. The ones i cherish and love that i have convinced myself are physical.. well are they physically here with me or another wielding of my thoughts and feelings. If i were to switch my eyes with yours, what would you see? could you even describe to me if i were to ask? perhaps even the beauty i find in this life, to you is horrifying and the same vice versa. Did the sun shine as bright for you as it did i, did the nights moon glow the same way,
so when i leave this place of magic how much of the magic was real?
Recipe: Cacao chia pudding with avocado mousse
(gluten free, sugar free, dairy free,low carb, DELICIOUS)
You will need for the cacao chia pudding:
- 2 tablespoons cacao powder (i used hershey’s natural unsweetened)
- 3 packets stevia (or sweetener of choice amount to liking)
- 1 cup unsweetened almond milk
- 2 tablespoons of chia seeds
- 1 teaspoon of psyllium husk (or omit for 1 teaspoon extra chia seed)
Method: mix the cacao powder and sweetener with a little of the almond milk first so the powder is easily mixed later, mix until not clumpy. Add the chia seeds and psyllium in and slowly stir whilst adding the remainder almond milk. Put in the fridge overnight or for a few hours for the pudding to “grow”
For the avocado mousse
- half a ripe avocado
- 1 tablespoon of coconut milk
- 1/2 a scoop of protein powder of choice vanilla flavoured (or plain flavoured just add 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract to it)
- 2 packets of stevia or sweetener of choice (again to liking)
- 150mls water
Method:place ingredients in a blender and blend untill it becomes a thick mousse like consistancy.
Take the premade cacao chia pudding and place in a glass bowl,mason jar or whatever you fancy! top with the avocado mousse and top with fruit,cacao nibs,nuts and all sorts of delicious goodies and NOM NOM NOM!
My dinner- paleo cauliflower pizza toppings of mackerel, cherry tomatoes, shiitaki mushrooms, cheddar cheese and avocado (will do a recipe for this with photo guide on saturday! be keen)
Breakfast- chocolate chia pudding with avocado protein cream+papaya with cinnamon
brunch (woke up at 11 today) - Apple cinnamon and buttersctoch paleo noatmeal topped with cream cheese,macadamias and apple slices!
What my eating disorder has done to me mentally, physically and socially. (warning photo’s below may trigger)
I think i look great in the above photo’s, they were taken last year around June-August 2013. I was in my mind making leaps and bounds in recovery, loving life, had great skin, was happy, went out often and loved people and my world passionately. The process and successes of recovery were amazing and it felt like i had my life and future back after a a 4 year battle.Since then I’ve relapsed heavily; the months of November and December were horrid and i lived in a confused fear yet clinging dependency of the monster that i fought so hard to banish, as it slowly returned. I wish that i was believer in monsters under the bed or in the closet i could close my eyes and they’d be gone, or the sun would banish them… but this one was within me and there was no escaping. Within 3 months i lost 11kg and my once vibrant, happy smile turned to this-